Thank you for taking time to read my story. I have had the Lord in my life for 40 years, I would say. I was not brought up on any certain religion. My beautiful mother, Joyce, who raised four children on her own, had the road open to me and how and what I wanted to believe. I went to church when I was a young girl, not every Sunday, but when I could get there. I went to Bible school, I went to Bible Camp.

I always was afraid that I didn’t accept God in the right way. Yes, I did ask him into my heart, several times when I was young, just in case he did not hear me. I was afraid that I was not praying right. I went on my whole life now, knowing that I did the right thing, that I am doing the right thing. But what is the right thing, I ask?

Mom had her Bible at the bedside and would read on her own. I loved seeing the Bible close at hand. I really never seemed to pray when I needed help, or if I was in trouble. I was always thanking him for letting me be able to help people, and to pray for people. I would pray for Him to watch over them, guide them, protect them.

I turned on the radio to 90.5 FM one day, just knowing that I would love to hear how other people have dealt with things in their life.

It hurts my heart to say that I lost my only child, Alex, on August 24, 2014. So very difficult. He was 22 years old and it was death by suicide. For not one minute have I been angry with Alex. I need to keep a tight focus on myself and God, who is putting me on track and always will. I will continue to follow the Lord as I need him more now than I ever had. I don’t want to blame or ask why, even though I know it is the part of the grieving process. There is no blaming, there is just a lot of unanswered questions that I will never get answers from, but God will show me the way. I am relieved in a way for Alex. I know that life was a struggle for him, and all of us. I hope that Alex knows that we will never be angry at him.

I thank people like you all who care to be so strong to help people in such a beautiful, amazing way. Every time I turn the radio on, there is always good that I get from it. Advice, free advice. Thank you all so very much. I will continue to listen and grow with all of you.

Kristie M. from Poplar, Wisconsin