I can think of two distinct – put a flag in the ground – sort of moments when God revealed the depths of His love for me. I’ll never forget those moments in time. They became reference points for me. And from those re-set moments, I walked along the path of faith and belief that I was someone God loved and wanted to use for His glory. And over time, my life-choices reflected my deep belief in the love of Christ.

If you’ve heard me speak, you already know about these two moments, so it’s okay if you yawn or take a nap while I share one of them here.

The first real tangible expression of God’s love came to me through my husband. I don’t have time to give you all of the back story that makes this moment so significant to me, but let me just say, it was a rock-my-world kind of moment. I had just come off of 6 months of bed rest (everybody and their brother took turns watching our two young children and making meals for us). This time of vulnerable need confronted every insecure bone in my body. I couldn’t wait to be functional again and not feel so exposed.

But life took a different turn for me. I was unknowingly bit by a deer tick during my pregnancy. So, sickness overlapped bed rest and I was to spend many more months in bed, or on the couch, or on the floor. When I couldn’t take it anymore, through fits of sobs and tears, I begged my husband to divorce me. I couldn’t bear to see what a ‘debt’ I had become to the family and I was only in my twenties! I begged him to marry someone who loved Jesus, who was feisty in her faith, and who would get on the ground and play with our boys. I didn’t want him to exhaust himself anymore on my behalf. I absolutely couldn’t bear to see the fatigue in his eyes.

During my hiccuped sobs and unreasonable requests, my husband stopped me in my tracks and said these words to me with a firm resolve (as if to say, I’m not going anywhere and neither are you): “You listen to me. You are my bride and you always will be. And if I have to kneel down to kiss you because you’re in a wheelchair, then that’s what I’ll do. You need to stop saying such things.”

At that moment, I saw the face of Christ in my husband. I understood on a much deeper level that we are not ‘what we do,’ we are simply someone He loves.

Say it to yourself every day. He loves me! He loves me! He loves me! I don’t have to earn this love. I don’t have to perform for this love. I just need to live in response to this love. Oh, Lord, help me embrace it, believe it, and live differently because of it. Thank you for loving me!’

You are everything to Him! So tell me, how have you grasped God’s deep and infinite love for you?

One Response to "Grasping the deep love of God"

  • Teresa Hall says:

    As I look back at the times I have had those lightbulb moments of KNOWING that He loves me, I get tears in my eyes- every single time. Psalm 18.19 says “He also brought me out into a broad place. He delivered me because He delighted in me.” The Lord has used this verse in profound ways to teach me about His love- some of which I have connected because I take notes in my Bible and date them. Two very different events- one, the first time I realized how much the Lord love me and brought me out of alcohol and other drugs!- and then again, exactly ten years later (to the day) when He saved me from a brutal physical attack that could have wound up in a rape, permanent injury or perhaps even death. In both instances, HE DELIVERED ME BECAUSE HE DELIGHTED IN ME! Woo Hoo! I don’t know if I can convey the depths of what I feel in a few short words, but the Lord’s love has and does change and transform me on a regular basis- Praise God!

    Thanks, Susie!

    P.S. See you at BTG “Free to Be Me!” 🙂

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