Highlight: Wreck My Life

On the outside, she was a celebrated athlete and a success at everything she tried. On the inside, Mo Isom was struggling.

“I had struggled with an eating disorder for several years. I kind of tried to surrender that, and crawl back into this new face that needed to be my own. I’d seen some amazing blessings – which made me think that this must be what Christianity is. I give God the glory and He rains down the blessings. And that’s kind of that skewed perspective as well.”

“Then, after my freshman year of soccer, I very unexpectedly and horrifically lost my dad to suicide. I just took off running from God. I ran to depression, anxiety, and promiscuity – an identity crisis – and just seeking any sin sized piece to fill the God sized hole in my heart.”

But this painful route was about to take a turn toward hope.

“After about a year of just intense struggle, the cry of my heart was kind of this desperate understanding of why my dad did what he did – and seeing it as a viable option for myself.”

“I was so broken – hurting so deeply with such a lack of identity and understanding who I was and what God said about me, with such a gaping hole in my heart from the loss of my earthly father. I just said, ‘God – wreck my life. I’m so resentful, so angry, so hate filled, so tired. Just do what you have to do. Just wreck it. Just end it.’

“He answered quite literally. I was actually headed home for Thanksgiving break, and ended up losing control of my Jeep, flipping it three times, and landing upside down in a ravine at one thirty in the morning. I was completely physically broken – the cry of my heart being God, just wreck my life. And He said, ‘I’ll wreck it, but I’ll wreck it to save it – and to save your eternal story.'”

Mo explains that the events of that early morning reshaped her future.

“The Holy Spirit met me in the wreckage of that car in a way it’s hard for me to even find words in the book to describe it fully. It was incredible, and the depth of the Gospel was just downloaded into my heart. I was reminded that I was seen and known and loved. And this adversity in my life – the eating disorder, the suicide, and all the stigma that came with that – the depression and promiscuity. The darkness didn’t have the power to define my story. The cross did. What Jesus did on the cross on my behalf did.”


Mo Isom is an All American soccer star, speaker & the author of  .

On the Road with Mo Isom